Empress in Distress.

it's been hard. a month feels like a year already. why do i feel like my orientation of time is messed up? sometimes time for me moves fast, very fast. now my brother is leaving home and living by his own, but i dont feel his absence just yet, sometimes i even search for him and ask my parents "where did he go?" gosh. not only that, i've just realized that i only have less than 2 years to hang around at school! i have to think fast and decide my path later, time cant be buy or reverse so i must use it properly. Weird, but i also think sometimes time moves too slow, way too slow. It seems like a year already, but it has only been 1 month since i became a sophomore. There are also tons of test and home works to do. It seems like school is rushing to get marks, they are too hurry! we're not going anywhere, sheesh. i think that i need to post this because my mind is in error state. things that are not supposed to happen is going to happen, things that im expecting to happen is not going to happen, time past by so fast, but it also moves too slow. i dont know what's going on anymore, it became complicated and chaotic. i need some refreshments, i need a break, i need to talk and resolve. Oh God, im an empress in distress, in my own world.